Restless

How long till the end?
Does it goes on forever?
Will it go away while I sleep?
Will it stay...?

I wonder about the meaning...
My spirit remains restless and
while my heart is sore and speechless
My mind explodes in hundreds of pictures

Images I've never seen before
Are so real and painful now
(even if they're just imagination...)

I know now
how giant is this hollow in between.
Always there...
never to be seen...

Nothing will ever be better or lovable,
or even worthy of care...
My work of you is done and I failed.
Just had to let you go!

Night after night I struggle
and crash into words that aren't mine
"It is no night to drown in"...
Talk to me dear Sylvia
and just tell me...

why not?

Song: Inquietação by JP Simões